Let the music play...music is power

With the departure of Prince I thought it was within my musically driven mind to share with you a few r&b songs that will forever move me. It's so many more but i'll post 4 artist/songs that get me in my feelings. I hope you enjoy them all and remember to listen to the lyrics... it's poetry in motion.

1. Prince - Most beautiful girl in the world. 

Growing up i wasn't the most outgoing person and i pretty much stayed to myself and did what i had to do to get through school work and everything else. Didn't have a daddy around to tell me i was beautiful. So this song reminds men that it means everything to a little girl/woman to have the man in her life tell her how beautiful she is. Listen to the words.

2. Shanice - Yesterday

Ever been in love and didn't want to let it go? Well Shanice made me understand you can't hold on to things that hurt you in the past. Everyone does not deserve a second chance. Sorry not sorry. Listen...

3. Glady Knight, Brandy, Tamia, and Chaka Kahn - Missing You

This song holds something special between me and my sister and mother. My sister is still here on Earth but if she wasn't I would miss her and carry on like she would want me to. My mom will always be my big sister girl. Sisterhood is so important. We have to stand strong together in this world of craziness. Listen..

4.  Mariah Carey ft BoyzIIMen - One Sweet Day

This song is just confirmation to me that we have to know we will meet our loved ones again on the other side. My one sweet day was when my mom told me she was proud of me (she always told me) but a week before she died was most important because she also said i did a great job trying to manage my life and my issues. She knew i would be okay. I love my momma. I'll see her again.

5.  Fantasia - Lose to Win

I love this artist because she performs like she is the only one in the room. Annointing comess in teh secular world too. In life you cant win them all and you have lose alot of things before you win the race. I cried when i first listened this cd. She left her heart on this one.

Bonus 6. Mary J. Blige - Take me as I am

I'm a Mary J fan from beginning to end and this song almost tops them all. No more drama and My life are both my faves. Take me as i am or have nothing at all... i got alot of flaws but i deserve a love that embraces all of me and vice versa.

The right Words...

I started typing this yesterday but stopped. I was talking with some sistars of mine about always having the words to say for someone else but never for myself. I take full responsibility for any and everything I haven’t achieved. Due to whatever circumstance. I feel like my focus has often been distracted by things  I shouldn’t let interfere with my progression. I’ve let love excuses and bad influences drain my common sense. I’ve always got a good word for someone but when it comes to me. I don’t know what to do.  I don’t really have a plan right now. I know what I need to do but now how I’m going to manage a lot of things. As I stated on FB my boss reminded me no one is standing in my way of greatness but excuses… I took it to heart.

It’s been many time where I wanted to call the fathers of my kids and tell them to come get their kids for a little while so I can get some things in order. But I’d be too scared those clowns wouldn’t do everything I do for my kids. Sad that I feel that way. I even dropped that bomb on my daughters dad, I asked him if God forbid something happened that I couldn’t be around for her could he manage. He say yeah I asked him what was her blood type and where is her birthmark, and what is her pediatrician name…dude went blank. I went off. All parents whether custodial or not should know or have access to everything involving their kid. The other one…smh I wouldn’t trust him to take care of my son’s issues right now, I have enough trouble. Those are things that trouble me and make me think of how irresponsible I was to be birthing these children with these fellas. But hey they here I love them and there is nothing that will change that. Nothing.

Matters of the heart….well I really been trying to put that one behind me. It’s hard cause there are things you share, remember, crave and desire. Doesn’t stop cause the contact between the two has come to an end. I am very hard on myself lately. Am I not pretty enough? Am I not ambitious enough? Am I worth the fight? Am I ready to start over? Things I wanna just put in a box and bring them out when my mental is better. I don’t want to continue to try and figure where I may have went wrong with any of my past relationships. I am a prize…and I didn’t lose a damn thing. They lost me. I am totally convinced that I didn’t my best and that really all I could do. I still get lonely. I still want things my way. I also need to let my heart rest. The rollercoaster needs repair…I stuck a wrench in that mofo.

i just don't know what to do with myself lately...i hate second guessing myself. ill get it together soon. I'll be feeling some kind of way for a while. Those who know and love me will understand what i'm saying...those who don't I ain't fo you understand. 

Day 29 - Dedicated by R. Kelly

Day 29.  Dedicational song to the person/people who always had your back?

My mother has been there from the start...not the Claire Huxtable mom but she did and is doing her best and that's why she is my favorite girl.

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