It's Elementary...my friend ~ Day 2

Welp  couldn't find any pics from elementary school but this looks like around the time i was. Me and my sis when we were in Philadelphia with our raggedy Ann and Andy dolls in this picture. I actually attended Miles Park Elementary school here in Cleveland Ohio when my mom moved us back here. I was "put up" because California education was way past Cleveland standards so that was short time i was there. 

I enjoyed it from what i can recollect. My only memory is  i only got paddled once on my hand by this teacher name Mrs. Tomko for talking in class and she was the one apologizing to my mom. Corporal punishment is real lol, but my mom wasn't having it. I remember the day i graduated form the 4th grade was the day i first started my period just short a few months of my 10th birthday. Had on white and everything. Tragic...my mom had to teach me on the spot how to use a sanitary napkin. I didnt want to sit down afterwards. Smh...That's all i can remember bout that time.

Love and Truth Challenge revisited (sort of)

So i was revisiting a challenge I participated in and i really wish i had an opportunity to revisit this one but that was a tough one to go through. I really truly wish that there were more good than bad things to mention when it comes to matters of the heart. I have learned by re-reading them i am making some same mistakes in my current relationship. Difference is we have a tighter bond than my prior relationships. 

Hindsight... baby is a motherfucker. I got people calling me and telling me I haven't left their mind and they couldn't really move on after doing me wrong. Some just bluntly throw the new chick up in my face like i care. I actually pray for a better outcome for them. I have been bitten by the love bug and spit out like old gum way too many times. I have the experience to know that if it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck...the muthafucka is a duck. You cannot rewrite a bad novel and resale it to me....with a new cover. 

I really do have mad love for my man right now. I want him to be successful. I want him to feel like he deserves me. Yes DESERVES me. I will no longer belittle my worth for any type of love. I want to be his wife one day but i want all demons and all that out his system. I will not go into another year feeling the way i did mid way through this year. Yeah i know it has its ups and downs but like I've said in many blogs I'm not into roller-coasters and i will get off when I'm ready. No man on this Earth will have the chance to say i got my way with her and didn't have to work for it.

I'm starting to worry more as i grow older but i shouldn't. What will be will be. I worry bout bills, kids and health. I crave stability. I'm talking bout that $200million dollar security. It's coming... maybe not the money but i will have my stability. Come hell or high water baby i claim it. I'm not going to suffer, be bitter, or go into some anti-man shell fuck that.

Love and the Truth will set you free....

Those who still stop by my blog and drop a line or two thank you those who breeze by thank you too nosey butt. Goodnight y'all.

Optimism - Optimistic

*sigh* Its hard right nite being optimistic about somethings going on but negativity never got anyone anywhere. My kids are my motivators they make me realize I can do anything. All they know is mom is their superhero. That cape gets worn and I have to make little repairs on it, secretly replace it without them knowing. I have hopes of a bright future for my family.that song Be Optimistic by  Sounds of Blackness keeps running through my head. I'll post it when I find it. That's all I got.

Kindred ~ Related

I'm not family oriented as normal people. I grew up with both parents til the age of 10. Then our life is pretty much a blur. I don't remember most of my childhood. I recall meeting my cousins on my mother side when we first got back here. We kicked it with them every weekend since we were all in the same age range. Then as we grew older we moved apart. It was too easy to just move on me my sister and brother didn't have structure around the house cause mom worked 16 hours a day. We needed.that but it just couldn't happen. I think family should eat together.

Kindred spirits are like family you just mesh together...without being blood related. I have alot of people who I call family cause they treat me and are there for me like family and vice versa. I'm just babbling here but y'all know what I'm getting at.
Kindred souls, kindred spirits, kin-dred.

Entity - BuddaLand

Singing *Elmo voice* Lalalala lalalala Budda's World! That's my personal entity....where I am free to be myself, express myself, and say pretty much how I feel without getting reported escorted or kicked out of anywhere. Joy pain celebration or just plain rantings...but its my world. Most people worry about what some body had to say I don't. I alfa have no problem kicking a disrespectful passenger off my private island.
                                                        My not for profit franchise doesn't need a label sponsor or spokesperson I make it clear in all my post that this is me and I'm not going to change...hate it or love it baby.
I am a entity all but myself promoting honesty and allowing my trials and testimony to encourage our inspire someone else who thinks they are alone.

Day 29 - Dedicated by R. Kelly

Day 29.  Dedicational song to the person/people who always had your back?

My mother has been there from the start...not the Claire Huxtable mom but she did and is doing her best and that's why she is my favorite girl.

LIKE MOTHER LIKE DAUGHTER

Day - 28 - Find your way back by Kem

Day 28.  Someone who hurt you in the past comes back for a second chance.  Depending on your response, what’s the song?

Ha...this song became true to life to me in March...thats all i'm gonna say Kem knows just what to say for me...

Day 27 - Freakum Dress by Beyonce

Day 27.  You’re getting cabin fever from being in the house and just want to get out for the night.  What’s your joint?

Somebody needs a reality check on how cold a chick really is...Watch me get in the wind with my freakum dress on.

Day 23 - Peace of Mind

Day 23.  You were in a deep state of anxiety, fear, and depression but you are slowly but surely coming out of it.  What song marks your revival?

Its all coming back to me now....I gotta find my peace of mind by Lauryn Hill.

Day 22 - What about your friends?

Day 22.  The very people you thought would hold you down at your worst have abandoned you.

FRIENDS ARE FEW FAR AND IN BETWEEN....WATCH WHO YOU CALL A FRIEND! REAL ONE WILL TRY THEIR HARDEST NOT TO DISAPPOINT YOU.