No Closure

Greetings everyone, 

Haven't visited this blog because i moved everything to Wordpress when all the business was going on about the sexually driven content here on blogger. 
I see myself shutting it down on Wordpress because I'm not one of those popular blogger who people can't wait to see post. I feel like I'm talking to myself most of the time anyway.

I have had a okay year. full of ups and downs as usual. Been trying to change a few stripes though. I'm trying my best to be open to different things lately. I often wonder if people even see the change. I have done better with hiding my feelings around certain people for their sake. That's not my thing.

What i am going through at this time in my life may be normal for some people but not for me. Who knew living right and doing right would turn into lifelong battle for me? Who knew being overcome with love and happiness would put me in a shell? I know I didn't but that's the way the cookie crumbles over here. Sad to say I share a lot of blame.

I really want people to realize losing my mom was very devastating to me. I still needed her. There are things that I didn't get to ask her. I still don't know what the hell I'm doing with these kids but dammit I'm winging it. I see so many take for granted that they still have the opportunity to learn and not judge their mothers. I am a mother so i know the many reasons why my mom had to do what she had to do. Still these thoughts don't fill the voids that overwhelm me from time to time.

Closure seems to be a word that comes across my brain in relation to all these things i don't understand. Whether it's relationships and friendships. I don't think I've done one thing to anyone that I haven't tried to explain my reasons and/or apologize. If I'm wrong I pray someone comes to me and corrects me. I hate when someone has something against me and they tell others instead of me. Thats an act of an coward.

I have closed myself up so tight that I haven't been in a relationship in 3 years now. I miss love. I miss the excitement of dating. I miss long walks and stolen kisses. I just have to be careful in who I give my attention and my secrets too. Everyone cannot handle the things I come with. Life is crazy y'all. I'm gonna keep living and loving those who want it. Thanks for stopping by to hear me whine... it's been real. 

Blessings, 


Lykebudda

That Love...

That mesmerizing I can feel you when your gone type of love,

 that rock me tonight

 and wake me up before you go go kind of love, 

that grab me hold me and caress me type of love

, that I can't think breath or function without you love, 

that endless timeless blind sighted love... 

That unexpected love... 

That love

Lykebudda 2014

You got the right one.....

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So people been giving K. Michelle grief about this song but it is my absolute favorite song by her. All her songs have hella emotion attached to it. I don't really care for the singing for the money type folks. You should be able to relate to what you are singing. "Fuck you and all that, blast me on Twitter and imma blast back" she wrote that from the heart. This video speaks volumes...might be petty but she got her point across. You have messed up with the wrong one and you will live to regret it if you come for me. Most cheaters, deceivers, and side pieces need their ego toned from time to time.

Yeah the lyrics are "ratchet" but it is what every woman is thinking when some lame she used to love tries to make a fool of her. He knows she is way outta his league and he came up just being chosen by her. The ones he chose to play around on her with thought they were achieving some great feat cause he had a go getta girlfriend and still knocking off the ex-gf, baby mamas, and groupie chicks. No you little peons....he picked the right one. The one who wasn't gonna lose sleep, income, or anything else without him. You need validity. She doesn't. He needs to have many women to be important. He faked his ambition, drive, and maybe his love for her. He lost one. This song made me want to blog. It don't have to make sense to you. *smirk*

Thank God it's over.. Happy New Year

I think i have blogged enough in 2012 and i don't really feel the need to dwell on what i have already spilled all year. I am truly just dealing with what i have on my plate currently. 

I have endured so much pain this year and some of it was self inflicted and the rest i allowed someone to give me. I just want to live, love, and be happy. It's there for me i just have to grab it and hold on to it. I never ever want to negate the things i did this year. Everyone has things they regret and things they would never take back cause at the time it was worth it. I never want to speak a word of the bad things that happened this year. It gives it too much life. I'm ready to move on and be happy with me. Not a man, not a situation, not anything i cannot control. 

I bought into that ride or die bullshit this year. Not for me babes. I will never go as far  i did this year. Yea i got alot of happy moments out of it, but i also took alot of stuff that i normally would have thrown up the peace sign on. All in the name of love. It's time to give this fragile heart to take a break and get herself together. Lots of lonely nights behind me and many in front of me...but i won't have to worry bout nobody but me and my kids well being.

I've learned alot about the people around me. I know who i can trust, i know who i can confide in, and i know who is wishy washy. I may not say anything but i always observe everything that's said or done in my presence. Face value. Your friend have friends that they share information with. You may think its only between you and that person but its not. I chose to keep my shit to myself that way no one has a case of the "damn it slipped out" moment. Be a real friend if it doesn't have nothing to do with the other party then they need not know. 

My family is wonderful they really helped me keep my spirits up this holiday season cause i was going down fast. God is awesome cause i had no plans this year. He sent my cousin up here and sent my good friends out to kick it with me. I do really think it was him. I prayed for a decent birthday even if i was in the house chillin and i got it. Christmas was smooth and New Year's I'm going to drink a few glasses of wine in my living room and kiss the drama of 2012 goodbye. 

In conclusion i did publish my own poetry book available now on www.createspace.com/3816107 its called As The Budda Flows and the link to the book and the Kindle version is available on the side bar of both blogger pages. thanks to those who have supported me over the years. I will be releasing another erotic poetry book around Valentine's Day. 

Have a happy prosperous New Year to all my readers thanks for being apart of my world.

Goin' through some changes...

I’m going through some changes cause I can’t get what I need at home. After being separated from him for the last 8 weeks I have had time to think and we have had time to talk one on one and get our issues out on the table. This space is driving us both crazy. He handling it better (so i think he is) not cause he has moved on but because he has been confined and away from the ones he loved before. He is now trying to get his life together so he can be the man I want and he needs to be. Where does that leave me? Lonely and missing him like crazy. He was my comfort. If the world was driving me crazy it was his arms I laid in and cried and prayed and felt love from. It was his kiss that made me feel like a little school girl. His smile or wink that put a little extra pep in my step. Yeah things were going all the way bad but it wasn't that bad. I don’t think I’m wrong for putting my foot down and not allowing my feelings and concerns to be put on the back burner. My delivery however could have been better. I came at him with such anger and disrespect I see how he felt I didn't have any type of respect for his feelings. The day before he left to go out of town to work he made love to me (more passionate than before) and held me so tight kissing me on my neck and telling me he loved me…I didn't even think we would end up here. I guess he had to do what he had to do before he started hating me. This year I have said how bad things were for me but he has been there for me. Hook or crook and I haven’t acknowledge that fact. He has endured a lot of my anger, pain, and sadness. I didn't even think about that. I’m in therapy for some issues I’m going through and he has come up in those convos. I really feel I have pushed him away. I don’t think it was easy for him. My children were very confused about him being gone cause we never involved them in our spats, they were clueless. They knew  mommy was happy and he was one of the reasons.

Reason for me writing this is simply to say…I have had time to think through some things and I’m acknowledging I did some wrong. I got back into a relationship with a person whose work persona limits how much of his personal life needs to be known. That when you get involved with a person who is in the “adult entertainment” field sometimes the extra that goes on is what brings the cash into the home. Nothing disrespectful…but the flirting the extra conversation is necessary…I get it. My beef with anyone who has a good woman who has your back and will be there when you are not your best needs not to hang in the background for long. You gotta put the persona up and make her feel like the only girl in the world. You gotta allow her to feel spoiled and important. This goes for anyone who is in the entertainment field. Period. When it creeps into your home and causes doubt then you need to straighten it out asap. Don’t even give her a chance to think about any other person being able to ruin a happy home.

Listen I’m not all that. I’m not thin (never will be) I’m not rich (in money) I’m not the easiest woman to convince (I’m bout action) what I am is a great woman. I take care of my kids, maintain my bills, keep a job,  love God, and I love you from my soul…those are qualities that I am proud of. I will always do right by the people I love. I will still do right even if you do me wrong. I’m not going to be disrespected and never going to be treated like anything less than a lady. I miss my other half…and he misses me but we both know we gotta get things together. I want to carry his last name. I want to be the motivation behind the scenes. I want him to be who and what he told me he would be. We just need to be on the same page…right now we are not. Too bad so sad. God will have the last word on this situation… I've placed my worries,fears, tears, and questions on his altar. My regret now is involving outside people in our spats. Sometime they can drive and wedge with their opinions and/or assumptions of your situation. That was the first and last time i will entrust sensitive information about anything to anyone period. 
What will be, will be i believe  Love never fails…we do. Thanks for reading.

Spilt milk....message to the fellas

I'm sure y'all see all my updates and things and I'm in a mood right now. Sometimes you gotta do things you don't want to do. I hate to see anyone else going through a situation that they have the power to change. I always want to offer advice but never tell anyone what they should do. I took alot of things into account when i first started writing this note. 

 i don't live in a fairy tale world. I don't boast or brag about anything that's not going on. I really truly have had a some great times in 2012. I've had a roller coaster of emotions come over me this year. I have felt like i was the luckiest woman and I've felt like i was the being taken for granted. I want to send a message out to the fellas:

Fellas if you have a woman who can see past anything in your past and accept what you are and where you are trying to get to appreciate that woman. there are too many women out here giving away there body and soul for a couple of minutes of pleasure or some monetary bullshit. I'm 35 and i don't have time for that shit. I have a job i have children i have responsibilities. I rely on no one but God for anything. when i woman says i will hold you down and she shows you...you need to spring into action and do whatever you can to keep her happy. She needs to feel what you feel. SUPPORT. She needs to know there isn't a woman in the world that can make you walk away from her. She NEEDS to see some action...let me repeat ACTION. You can have the gift of gab with these hoes a real woman ain't gonna fall for that. She might not say it out loud but TRUST she is watching, listening and waiting for you to SHOW her you are real.Its hard out here right now. People losing jobs, families falling apart, and people are losing their mind. This isn't the time to be SELFISH in any relationship. If you truly LOVE TRUST RESPECT HONOR AND APPRECIATE  that woman SHOW HER or you will lose her and her trust and respect. 

I'm a strong beautiful black woman. I hurt, i bleed, i get angry, i pop off, i vent, i sing, i cry, i write, i love, i nurture....what i don't do is play a fool for anybody. It's not in my DNA. I really truly wish this year was ending on a better note. I was supposed to be planning a wedding right now. I was supposed to be celebrating an anniversary in November. But just like that POOF. Spell was broken...I'm not perfect but what i am is real. I take full responsibility for not cutting this madness sooner. But love is a powerful drug. Not wanting to give up and not wanting to see failure clouded my impulse to just walk away. We shared some great days and some special nights...that person was there for me at the toughest times of my life and that showed me this wasn't fake. It just may not be the right time. Maybe God wanted us to be... i needed him and he needed me. One of us lost their way. If God see's fit maybe we will have another chance to get it right..maybe its the end. Who knows. Fellas i hope you received this. I typed this with no tears in my eyes and no hate in my heart...i found love and i don't regret one minute of it.

I must be a fool...or it's just you

"Telephone line

I sit by and wait for your call

here all alone

wondering who you're talking to 

Maybe I'm a fool in love

Maybe I'm a fool in love

Maybe I should just give up

I'm just a fool in love

Must be a fool in love."

Feeling like a plum dumb fool right now...not a new feeling but a uneasy feeling. Sometimes giving your best ain't good enough. Its like some are so use to the world being  against them they don't know how to handle it when someone has their best interest at heart. You want them to succeed and have something to be proud of. Give them the opportunity to hold their head high even if its not the best circumstances. We all need the support love and even the honesty from the ones they love. Its called unconditional love.When you are programmed in your head that "i'm right and everyone else is wrong" you clearly have life messed up. Obviously your ducks are not completely in a row if shit still is not going in a positive direction. I'm not into kicking people when they are down..never have never will cause i know what that feels like. I'll give a person my last so they won't go hungry angry or be embarrassed but will they go the extra mile for me? Not that i ask for reciprocation for everything i do, but you really do get tired of the lack of support and the extra bullshit that you don't really gotta go through to show a person that you care. Its indeed getting old....real old.

Untitled...

Destiny is what brought us close

we are turned on by the sound of each others voice

the whisper of i love you in the loudest room

comes crystal clear to my ear

makes my heart skip a beat

makes me feel the sonic boom

i justify my feelings from the spinning of this room

I'm in love I'm in love I'm in love

on repeat surround sound too

breathing slowly so i can turn down this tune

insatiable is how i feel when I'm with you

I'm lost in your arms

i swoon like the movies

from some things you do

i never knew a love like this before

hmmm i should say true

you simply satisfy me

you make me feel good

you sing the sexiest serenade

you make the hakuna matata ooze

purr even a sudden monsoon

you make love to every inch

every limb

you perform the whole set

no censor no mute button

just me the camera and you

many would think i worry cant i trust you

the question is if your word is your bond

I'm gone ride or die for you too.

~Lykebudda2012~

Back to Business...

im an open book

 but i desire to close it

things are hard for me noone knows it

cause the strong woman in front of you has plenty of aches

has plenty of pains

has a lot of loss

but so much more to gain

the spirit of love is in a frenzy

the spirit of hate has risen up in me

the spirit of self doubt offends me

the angel of self love is dimming

trial and tribulations are deep

gets me restless

depriving me of sleep

the thought of my future often looks bleek

cause i have some monster hiding inside of me

i cant let him have Angie

thats not what God has placed before my feet

the strength of a man indeed 

to take on anything that tries to hinder me

evaluating my surroundings 

know i have so much more heaven around me

i need to take in the good air

and leave those demons to fight

they never fight fair

this pen has been in cessation

but i have something to say

some real shit for your ass expression....get ready for this trip

Lykebudda is back scribing with a mission

to save you all from the bs

its time to bring the wrath....its time to get back to business.

~Lykebudda2012©~ all rights reserved  

Goin through it

No this ain't about my love life...this about my life period. I've been trying to stay busy and do things that distract my brain from the anxiety I've been experiencing. Reading praying cleaning...and back to praying. Music my kids anything to stop my brain from churning. The devil is busy trying to get me on his team and it will never happen.God had been great to me. He has been everything I needed when I thought I was missing out on things. I'm starting to shut folks out and I shouldn't but its my best defense. I think there are people out there who pray against you. I say to them you are fighting a losing battle. My chief is stronger than yours...he has better weapons and more powerful words. Devil get behind me better yet under my feet. You are not welcomed and none if your weapons shall prosper in my world. Thank you lord for giving me some calm in my life. Those who pray with me and for what I may be facing thank you. Thank you for not asking many questions or feeling some way that I'm so quiet. Love y'all. Have a pleasant Sunday.

Can I breath again? Yes I can.

I’ve tried to just muffle this joy… I have been silent about what is taken place in my world. I have had a lot of question marks, exclamation points, and very firm periods over these last couple years. I have placed a block on my heart and it’s hard to penetrate this security system that many have been briefly interfaced. I’m not  beyond repair its just on high alert and in need of the real thing. I think…I think, I hope, I pray that Mr. Forever has entered my world. I have been head over heels for a man before…but this time it’s the other way around. He is so into me. Caters to me, Calms me, assures me and apologizes for whatever I have been through that has me questioning his every move and vice versa. We are >>>>>here<<<< yo.

I REALLY exhaled this week he asked me something that I have been dying to hear for my whole life…I didn’t say no. I didn’t say yes. I said it’s a possibility. For the first time in a long time I felt like a school girl. I’ve been celibate for a few months and it hasn’t worked for several fellas  I have talked to, they find out the coochie on clink-clink and they keep it moving. *shrugs* so what. I have no interest in being anyone’s girlfriend for the rest of my life. I thought long and hard about what I want to do with my 2012. Ever since early 2008 I have been in this endless circle of bad romance. I am wore out…I can’t take another heartbreak.

Mr. Forever doesn’t come without “baggage” he has a story too. Not used to a chick like me. But ready for the real thing. There is nothing more sexy than a man who wants to learn everything about you. What makes you laugh what makes you cry…your dreams your lows and highs… I missed getting those “I’m thinking about you, how’s your day, your beautiful, winks kisses, prayers…cute quotes. I get them without saying a word…visit at lunch time just to put a smile on my face…that type of shit makes me feel special. When you got to force someone to say sweet nothings its redundant. He is putting it on me...in more ways than one (mind your biz

I know one or more of my exes read the stuff I post so I’m going to say this:

 You were a very important person in my life. I loved you. I prayed for you. I was good to you. But you were never for me and I was never for you. I thank you for your many painful lessons. The long nights of crying, questioning my worth, and heartache. I can only hope you seek out and find what truly makes you happy cause it obviously wasn’t me. I am moving forward for the benefit of my heart. I have realistic expectations that someone will love me the way I need love and accept what I have to give with open arms. It’s your loss I may not be perfect, but I am worthy of a try. Too bad I didn’t get that chance *record stopping* scratch that you didn't  take the time to appreciate my worth. Take care and have a great life. I must let you go to allow him to love me unconditionally. Love always, Budda.

I feel so free y'all I pray for the day when I will be able to say I’m glad you were the best thing I never had…its coming. everyone and everything happens for a reason. I know believe me I know. stay tuned this story can only get better. Toddles people.

Limitations ~ No Limits

"Said i'm loving you, loving you everyday don't you look no more Love without a limit" MJB

I have for some reason thought i had a limit of what i can take...but i also notice i have expanded my thinking lately. Maybe cause i'm getting older and i'm in what the hell mode. You only live once. You hurt a thousand times, you love a hundred times and you suffer/struggle at some point in your life. The only limits that are there are those you impose on yourself. 

I can say a million time "i'm not going through that shit again" and low and behold i'm back down memory lane. Never used to be big in my vocabulary until "never" walked up on me and swept me off my feet a few times in my adulthood. I wish never would keep his/her ass out of my damn way sometimes. 

I've cautioned myself to try not to put such a barrier around myself when its comes to motherhood, love, family and career decisions. To much has been passed up cause i had that "i don't do this or that" frame of mind i have had for a long time. Sky is the limit and i'm gonna ride this mutha till the wheels fall off.

Un-Raveled ~ Back to Me Freestyle

breaking up with my feelings

need to detach to secure my sanity

i need to practice selfishness

stop the insanity

of being made to be last in standing

I've stopped being so demanding

i cant for the life of me

determine what went wrong

I'm beautiful

I'm strong

I'm responsible

i get my freak on

i turned my life into a song

"if you look in my life you'll see what i see"

you will vibe with me

embrace me

i turn the sexy on

without the trash

i have class

and a voluptuous ass

i cant verify every mistake in my past

is sending me through this twilight zone

why do i always tackle this shit alone

who said i don't deserve the happily ever after

who said every struggle

must fall in my lap

who does that?

the butterflies have disappeared

the evidence is pointed out

conversation has made it clear

that there is still a road for me to travel

the reigns have been unraveled

I'm off this horse

I'm shining up my saddled

happier trails are ahead of me

on a road I'm familiar with

but I'm going in a direction that by me has been

recently less traveled

back to me.

~Lykebudda2011~

Day 23 - Go together like a horse and carriage...

23~ Do you think love and marriage are synonymous?

Yes i do think love and marriage are synonymous. Why not get married if your are in love? Not day one or just a few months into a relationship, but i think people who are truly in love desire to be forever connected in the biblical sense. I know i am not gonna be running round here throwing flowers and saying I'm in love and be with someone 20+ years and they never ask for my hand in marriage. But check it that's me. I haven't been married but when i do say "I Do" there is going to be love involved. That's my take on this question.

Day 15 - I John 4:8

15~ Can you live without a love relationship?

I don't think i will never live without love....cause God is love. 
I might be lonely i might have a million cats running around and the mailman is my only form of communication but as long as i got Jesus in my life i can never have a life without love. Yeah that's my final answer.

I John 4:8 Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

Day 13 - Flaws & All

13~ Do you believe in unconditional love?

My thoughts on unconditional love is the love i receive from my children. They love me like i love my mom. No matter what she does, says i love her no different. I've found that kinda of love with them is priceless.


Now with the grown folks its different. People can say i love you no matter what and then something crazy happens and the love is gone. *pause* 
"After the love is gone what used to be right is wrong can whats been lost be found" ~ Earth Wind & Fire.


I don't know about y'all but i feel like its unconditional when the person can accept that your not perfect and you will not always live up to their standards. I honestly can say there is no limit on unconditional love...some people will go through the fire and the rain for their love. They will endure the cheating, the one sided relationship, the lack of attention cause they love the person so much.


 My answer is yes i believe in unconditional love. Its hella unreachable in my opinion. 
I cry with Beyonce on the video below cause its very rare to find someone who accepts u at your best and your worst.

Day 11 - Love don't love me....

11~ whom (no names, if you prefer) did you love, who didn't love you back?

I hesitated on this one cause I couldn't think of anyone who didn’t love me but then again hindsight is 20/20. Clear as glass. I usually don’t speak of one particular clown cause the situation is still a sensitive one. This one I have to say was a lesson learned for me.

You can’t judge a book by the cover is surely right. This occurred in mid 2007/early 2008. Introduced to this dude who wasn’t my type at all but what the hell I stepped outside of the box. He was popular, he bartended and DJ’d Spotlight type of fellow. He was sweet to me we spent a few days & nights together and I started to dig him. His bedroom game wasn’t all that but he was charming and sexy. He had an issue with being tied down and I knew it by the crowd of women that followed him like lost puppies. But I still assumed I could “change him”.

I asked him what he felt for me one day and he said you cool, sexy, funny and he was fond of me then BUT came into the atmosphere. “I aint ready to be tied down right now”. (He recently divorced) so that was my cue to put it down on him one more time and excused myself from his presence for good. I wasn’t looking for a bed buddy. I found out from a friend of a friend he said he wished he hadn’t kicked it with me like that cause we used to be close before that. It was my own fault because I didn’t do my homework before I put my heart on the line. He today is still my dude because hey it didn’t work out but there is no reason we can’t be cool. I’m always cool and not petty ask any of my exes except for the clown i wont mention. 

Day 10 - Cause I love Y'all...

10~ List 10 people you love and explain what they mean to you

1. God - he has been there for me since conception and birth he is the reason i live and can pick my head up and keep it moving when life gets to hard.

2. My mother - This lady went through the fire and the storm to make sure we had what we needed and taught us a big lesson about sacrifice. She is my rock she tells me straight forward answers when i ask. That's where i get it from. That's my Honey.

3. My kids - Briana & Brandon those two lil angels make everything in my life worth it. I love my kids with every fiber within me. If i wasn't a mother i have no idea where i would be in life...they love me with no conditions.

4. My siblings - Deon and Theresa We grew up poor, we were deprived of many holiday "normals" and were taught how to just get by. We all have grown up to be beautiful human beings. I love my brother and sister cause we are transparent with each other. There is no show boating or I'm doing this and ur not type of bullshit. We know where we came from.

me and my sister Rissa

my big bruh on the right Deon

5. My Aunt Brenda - she will never know how much her finding us and connecting us with our father side of the family has cleared up some questions for me. It still hasn't been violins and birds chirping but I'm glad to know everyone. She has always been good to me and i love her to pieces.

6. My homies Adrienne and Demetrya- there are not many females i can be bothered with but these two are closes to me. There are like night and day but i love it. They are my sisters...they are not my blood but i confide in, can be transparent with, and they aren't on the nonsense that most of the ladies i have been affiliated with be on. They are great mothers and providers just like myself. that's why i love them.

adrienne

demetrya

7. My girls - Lasherri, Tamarra, Amenika. These three ladies have been in my life for the past 6-7 years. We were coworkers first and then we branched out as friends. Lasherri has been there when she didn't have to be. She has came through for me  when no one else cared. I dint have to call her and ask for nothing. We talk like sisters and she told me recently I'm too hard on people and it stuck cause i know she meant that in the most girl get it together way. Tamarra my gospel sister when i met her i was afraid to curse in her presence. She was a wife, church going gospel singing nurse who had everything in the right place. She quickly told me she had to go through it it to get to it (the place she is now) She shares her happiness through her smile...that's my girl. Amenika is the exact replica of me she is no nonsense woman who will put you in your place quickly we share the same disdain for stupid ppl and stupid shit. I can call and talk to her and its like talking to myself. She is honest too.


8. My friend Al  - Even tho we don't roll as hard as we used to this one knows alot about me. They have seen me at my best and my worst. Al has ALWAYS been a staple in my world he can read me when I'm not being a 100% we always pick up where we left off. Life has a way of sending the right ppl in your life at the right time.
9. My cyber divas- Kali, Joy, and Lee-Lee - Kali we haven't met offline but we have talked on the phone and she has been beneficial to my life. She is candid honest and she of course LISTENS to what you have to say. I've borrowed her ear many of times and embraced her honesty. She doesn't give advice she gives her take on life and that's always appreciated. Joy - i remember the day she called me when i got admitted into the hospital to check on me. She dint have to do that but she did. Her ability to where her heart on her sleeve has encouraged me to continue to just BE me and let the world catch on to my wings. Lee-Lee is my girl from 360 we used to chat it up all the time. One day i spoke to her on the phone for like 2 hrs. she live in Cali and I Cleveland. She told me her struggles and from that day forward i knew she had a story to tell and ppl needed to listen. I can say she has been a great person towards me. I love these three as my extended sisters and they need to know that.
10. I LOVE MEEEEEEEE! No one can love me like me. No one will console me like me. No one will have my back for me like me. no one will encourage me like me. I am beautiful, comfortable in my skin and ready to finish out this life loving all over myself.