Back to Business...

im an open book

 but i desire to close it

things are hard for me noone knows it

cause the strong woman in front of you has plenty of aches

has plenty of pains

has a lot of loss

but so much more to gain

the spirit of love is in a frenzy

the spirit of hate has risen up in me

the spirit of self doubt offends me

the angel of self love is dimming

trial and tribulations are deep

gets me restless

depriving me of sleep

the thought of my future often looks bleek

cause i have some monster hiding inside of me

i cant let him have Angie

thats not what God has placed before my feet

the strength of a man indeed 

to take on anything that tries to hinder me

evaluating my surroundings 

know i have so much more heaven around me

i need to take in the good air

and leave those demons to fight

they never fight fair

this pen has been in cessation

but i have something to say

some real shit for your ass expression....get ready for this trip

Lykebudda is back scribing with a mission

to save you all from the bs

its time to bring the wrath....its time to get back to business.

~Lykebudda2012©~ all rights reserved  

Goin through it

No this ain't about my love life...this about my life period. I've been trying to stay busy and do things that distract my brain from the anxiety I've been experiencing. Reading praying cleaning...and back to praying. Music my kids anything to stop my brain from churning. The devil is busy trying to get me on his team and it will never happen.God had been great to me. He has been everything I needed when I thought I was missing out on things. I'm starting to shut folks out and I shouldn't but its my best defense. I think there are people out there who pray against you. I say to them you are fighting a losing battle. My chief is stronger than yours...he has better weapons and more powerful words. Devil get behind me better yet under my feet. You are not welcomed and none if your weapons shall prosper in my world. Thank you lord for giving me some calm in my life. Those who pray with me and for what I may be facing thank you. Thank you for not asking many questions or feeling some way that I'm so quiet. Love y'all. Have a pleasant Sunday.

Nucleus - Center of Everything

In my home I am the center of everything...the head of household..the matriarch. But God its the Nucleus of my life. He makes the works go round and no one would be here without him. His is the head of my life..he always is there for me when I need him. When he took my grandmother home I couldn't do nothing but thank him for allowing me 31 years to have her. Today she was heavy on my mind...don't know why but I'm sure there was a reason. I have not been to church in a while and I feel pretty bad about it. Watching online is not always good. I'm babbling but y'all get it. I need to make Christ the nucleus if my life..maybe things will start going right.

Day 23 - Peace of Mind

Day 23.  You were in a deep state of anxiety, fear, and depression but you are slowly but surely coming out of it.  What song marks your revival?

Its all coming back to me now....I gotta find my peace of mind by Lauryn Hill.

Day 15 - I John 4:8

15~ Can you live without a love relationship?

I don't think i will never live without love....cause God is love. 
I might be lonely i might have a million cats running around and the mailman is my only form of communication but as long as i got Jesus in my life i can never have a life without love. Yeah that's my final answer.

I John 4:8 Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.